Stoic Garden

No tree says flowering is better
than bearing fruit, just lovers, who embrace
the faith we belong to homo sapiens,
that nostalgic species, the one which takes
the egotism of dying for its own,
longing for perfect flowers and fruit.
Like hummingbirds, themselves deciduous
leaves which perish if trapped in airlessness,
they flit from one lush shrub to another,
sucking at salvia and drooping fushia,
drones darting off to persist, if at all,
in retinal afterglow, green for red,
absence for the flutter of a wing,
a heartbeat for a spasm.

***
Back in the days when I practiced literary criticism for a living, I admired readings of a poet’s work which successfully identified its returning themes, and especially recurrent images and metaphors. The above poem is one example of métaphore filée, in English a conceit — no relation to ego, to be sure. 

That may well be what the play of motif and self-referentiality looks like from the outside. From within, this “auto-intertextuality” (ta-dum!) can feel like a debilitating lack of creative energy, abject surrender to ones obsessive tics and manias. Repetition as death.

Time, I guess, will tell if this conceit lives on. 

As for how I came to literary criticism, I have been perusing my archive of diaries lately, those that have survived a precarious vagabond, transnational existence. This is how I can situate the approximate moment at which I took the turn which led to that particular slough of despond.  I was lucky enough to benefit from a third year abroad in Grenoble.  By the time I returned from France, in the summer of 1966, the deed, I might even say the deal, a diabolical one, was done. I no longer thought of myself as a poet or writer, rather as someone who knew a lot about books. The first assignment returned to me in a senior English class bore, ironically perhaps in red pencil, a remark something like: “now you are learning to write like a literary critic”. The grade was A+.  A kiss, if not of death, at least of treachery. 

We all have to make a living somehow. At that point in time, though still resisting graduate school and apprehensive I would soon face a choice between jail and exile, I saw that it might be possible, providing I avoided incarceration, to become a teacher and earn slightly more than I could performing the menial labour to which I was accustomed. That at least was the pay scale in force in the mid-sixties. By the time I retired from my academic career, the disparity in income between someone who makes things or at least moves them around and someone who fabricates parcels and packets of knowledge and passes them on to students had radically widened. 

It could be argued das ist auch gut so: this is as it should be in an knowledge economy. Value is now produced more by making things up than by making them. The financial value of what academics make up  may well be grossly inferior to that of what financiers make up, but the academic product still resides on the prosperous side of the boundary between what materially is, and what is fiction. The advantage accruing to those who produce fictitious capital is nonetheless exponentially greater than that falling to authors of mere academic fiction, let alone fiction itself, and even lower down the food chain, poets. In this world, the value of the poem above approaches nil. 

 

Oracle

Dawn at Delphi. Goat bells clustering in
the air like fruit and the whir of doves in flight
were as loud as bees’ buzz in the dried-out shrubs.
So much sensation, sans revelation.
Two days later in Naupoli arak
drew me through antic night and into day.
Penitent, I threaded the sun’s eye at noon,
staggering dazzled up eight hundred worn
steps through the shrill of cidada, squinting
at light warped into waves broken over
bleached stone slabs. Nausea unparalleled!
Yet I clutched at the notion I might strew
my tidings, which would flourish like the clumps
of weeds whose seeds have fallen into cracks.

***
Summer of 1966, touring for the first time with my college buddy and erstwhile room-mate Howard, we made it with Eurorail passes through Italy and on down to Greece. We left the hostel early one morning to visit the oracular site at Delphi, full of beauty but sadly absent of mystery. It was only a couple of days later, after a bout of frenetic drinking, that I had something of a vision, one wrqpped in an awful hangover for which I paid due penitence by ascending under a July sun to the old Ottoman citadel at Naupoli. Let me quote a passage from an older blog on the psychedelic powers of alcohol:

Alcohol is a toxin, as professional busybodies remind us everytime they have a chance, as if anyone with a smattering of self-consciousness were not fully aware of this, and from an early age ….

What the puritans do not want us to understand and then say aloud is that the dislocation of experiences and values alcohol wreaks is also sacred in impact, wine and the gods having been linked from ancient times.

Alcohol etches into memory simulacra of the sacramental and nepenthic gestures humans seek in their most vaulted religious and communal rituals, but this potion is readily available on a daily basis, and in portable containers. Though we seek out and pay for alcohol, we do so gratuitously, for no good reason, not because a doctor says it is good for us, as we do compulsively, addictively with the copious output of the pharmaceutical industry, but because we just don’t care about what makes sense, nor what might be the right thing to do.