Shinny

I was a boy myself once so don’t need
much told me about trees. I know to hide
in their boughs and filch their illicit fruit
before it falls to the ground and takes root.
I know to shinny up high then clamber
to where branches thin and the climber
feels a pit suddenly yawn in his guts,
up where twigs extend to buds, where height hurts.
Something about a tree doesn’t really mind
the theft of its fruit. A tree is resigned
to a boy swaying in his tenuous
crotch, dizzy at his chosen precipice.
Something about a tree wants to be climbed.
Something about a boy wants to climb it.

***

Probably the less said about this poem, the better: a distant echo of Frost’s “Birches”, this crypto-sonnet bears the alternative title “Onanism”. Related to this earlier poem, “Sad To Be a Child”.

Tokens

Of the winding paths the mind’s eye traces
aimless in the past I risk no comment.
The see-saw of tense and place prevents
my grasping their grammar. Just the moment’s
bustle I know, scant marks of confusion
gilt in the sun-slant air: calliope
motes, a wisp of disobedient hair.

Yet given the girl poised light as a lip
on this curb, I could whisper into the soft
cream nautilus of her ear one secret of time.

***

“How could I ever have written such a silly thing?” I often mutter to myself, having run across a yellowed typescript or a text unfortunately preserved like a fossil in print. Juvenilia is the catch-all for these relics, usually best left to slumber in peace. I have nonetheless taken to waking them, excavating and polishing some for curation, as I put it.

Not a gift, more a burden, poetry nonetheless offers largesse to anyone who has practised it over a life-time, a treasure chest of gilt tokens distilled from past passions and illusions which can still be cashed in for memories no longer in current circulation.

Revising the lyric above has enabled me to stand again on that curb-side of the Boulevard St-Germain, angle Danton, renewing my futile desire for the anonymous woman who stood momentarily next to me before crossing through afternoon sunshine towards métro Odéon in late September, 1965.